Sunday, July 17, 2011

How do I know which church is for me ? I am a Christian and want to go to church but which church do I go to?

My family background is not a religious one, I was Christened as a baby but we never went to church as children so in that respect I am C of E. I have always felt the Lord was with me but we didn't praise and worship him growing up. My sister and I went to Sunday school as children in the local village as it was a place to meet up with friends from school and they did parties at Christmas and Easter etc, I enjoyed learning about God and the story of Jesus's life and felt connected to him even at this young age where as my sister found it boring so we stopped going. A few years later, when I was about 12 years old I asked if I could be confirmed, not sure how it came about as I knew nothing about it really but my Mum took me to confirmation lessons and waited for me in the car. I felt completely out of my depth as I didn't have any real experience of religion or going to church and was in a class with people that had been going to church every week for as long as they could remember and knew the bible etc so after a couple of lessons I stopped going. Then a couple of years ago I started talking to God again and was confirmed but moved areas and found the local church very formal, old fashioned and the Sunday services very depressing and sombre. I want to Praise the Lord, sing my heart out and feel good that Jesus loves me. I want to be inspired and encouraged to be a good christian through the sermon, I want to feel connected to the Lord and taught how I can interpret the bible to help me be a good Christian and resist sin, temptation and evil. The local church I was attending would hand out a printed leaflet on arrival which we would read along with the reverent, have someone read a passage from the bible, sing a few very old and slow hymns that always seemed to be the same tune, go through the communion procedure, say a prayer and go home. The whole service was less than an hour and although everyone was lovely and friendly, I never felt part of a Christian community where people go to praise the Lord and Jesus, it felt more like attendance was out of duty rather than for a love of God. All this has left me lost now, what sort of church am I looking for? I thought Pentecostal sounded more like a celebration of our love for the Lord but have read that it is very judgemental and someone like me would not be accepted. Whilst I am trying to stop my sinning and learn more about the bible etc, I am not quite 100% perfect model Christian and fear that I wouldn't ve able to be open and honest about myslf and who I am. I am trying to give up smoking, I live with my fiance of 6 years already (obviously out of wedlock), I still swear on occasion although trying to address this also and sometimes drink too much. These are all sins that I do want to change and I repent my sins to the Lord and ask for his forgiveness whilst praying for the strength to overcome temptation and resist evil but I am not there yet and wouldn't want to feel like I have to put on an act with fellow church members for fear of being shunned and not accepted otherwise. What sort of Church will accept a sinner like me and help me to conquer my sins rather than judge me for them? I live in Cheshire so there isn't a huge diverse mix in my area, I am not aware of a local Gospel church for example however I may just not know where it is. Has anyone got any ideas as to the type of Church that would be more suited to me or give me some insight into their experiences with their church and choice of worship to help me make an informed decision. I am of course continually praying and know that the Lord will give me the answers I need, whatever form they may take. Also please don't waste your time to answer that God doesn't exist or informing me to just live my life without religion, I respect that everyone has a choice to believe what they wish therefore please respect my choices and don't respond. I am looking for answers from like minded people who have faith and the love of God in their lives only. Just remember that God loves us all.

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